Back from hols...

Salaams all..

Back from two weeks on hols, except why are holidays with two young kids called that.. its just not is it? so much more hard work then normal.  Well, Thanks to God in one way or another we all managed to have an enjoyable time.. will post some pics soon inshaAllah.. God willing.

Now.. since all the uni work has backed up.. its time to head to the farm.. hmmm and maybe then open the books..

Umm xx

Time to change...

I should, as usual, be doing something else.. but here i am!  I have been making intentions for a while to change my ways.. sometimes you get stuck in a rut and its really difficult.  For me, I am not a person of the middle path, no matter how much i want to be.. I am either all or nothing in most things i do.. and when its all i eventually burn out. 

For years now i have tried to be more balanced and slowly slowly i am getting more balanced, espicially since having the lil men.. yet i also have a tendancy to procrastinate.  Next week, im off on vacation for a few weeks and im going to take this chance to make a fresh start and to make some fresh intentions and God willing stick to them.


Another thing thats been on my mind is hijab *yawn*!! Ive worn mine for nearly 11 years now and to be honest, ive never really stuggled with it, i love it.  I think there was once, a year or so before I got married that i took it off for a day.. but it went straight back on.  Some of my friends have had a real struggle with it.. and some have taken it off.. it makes me wonder why it is such a struggle.. honestly, i really dont know?  Another thing that annoys me about it, is that most people i meet assume that i wear it because of my husband.. or because i married a Muslim.. I get this alot, and I know its between me and God.. but no-one would dream of thinking my husband has a beard because hes married to a Muslim woman!  Hijab and modesty is definately one of the things i love most about Islam..

Now.. off to do something useful... although i can hear the kettle calling me..!

Too tired for words...

...some pics from my lovely but extremely exhausting weekend.

can't keep up already!!

Salaams and Peace...

 Well.. being a Mommy, wife and full-time student seems to be getting a litte bit too much these days.. dont get me wrong, its the right decision for me.. disorganised little me, but its keeping on top of everything.. struggling isnt even the word!

I think the fact im not happy with myself at the mo is making a huge difference too, im so unmotivated and feel slightly self distructive.. my eldest boy is trying me, as always and add to the mix a bomb site of a house and a million things on the to-do list and im thinking 'i dont care'.. onwards and upwards though.. and God willing i want to get outta this funk.. tips appreciated!!!!

Also.. am gona attempt to keep on top of the blogging.. whether anyone reads or not..


Stay safe.. Umm xx